May 18, 2005

• My Testimony-

  I thought I would try to write out just how
  I became a Christian.

  I was brought up in a small, independant, non-denominational,
  charismatic church. At times when I was a child I would join in the
  worship because I wanted people to think I was spiritual. At times I
  would sit there with my arms crossed, hating God for no reason.

  I was always a pretty good kid. Didn’t disobey  much. Got
  reasonable grades. But when I was in 7th grade I decided to try being
  rebellious. Not like doing drugs, sleeping around rebellious, just
  cutting class and not doing my homework rebellious. “Going with” guys
  my mom didn’t like rebellious. (She  had good reason not to like
  them, mind you.) Of course, rebellion didn’t make me happy. It made me
  pretty depressed.

  Then one night I had a dream, a nightmare, really. This was in the
  early 80′s and the press was always trying to frighten us into
  believing that Reagan was going to start a nuclear war. In my dream,
  there actually was a nuclear war and I died. I woke up scared to death
  and with the conviction that were I to die, I would go to hell. I cried
  and prayed that night and it was hours before I could get back to
  sleep, but though I was under the conviction of sin, I was still
  unsaved.

  A couple of months later the church youth group went to one of those
  big, outdoor festivals. I don’t remember a whole lot about what anyone
  said. There was a guy who spoke a bit, and sang a bit. Then Debbie
  Boone came out and sang “You Light up My Life.” I cried and cried over
  my sin and rebellion. Then, at some point it was as if everything was
  golden. I mean, I just knew there was a change, that I had crossed from
  darkness into light. It was an incredible experience. And that was it,
  I was saved and God did it all. I never made a “decision” or anything
  like that. It was all His work from beginning to end.

  • 10:44 pm
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